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This is one of the hardest things I've ever posted for all the world to see. I was born with Port Wine Stain, a vascular birthmark and blue naevus. I have been through 20+ laser treatments. I'm not here to give you a sob story about how I was bullied my whole life. I was blessed with an amazing group of friends who saw past my physical difference. Obviously, there were incidents where things were said, people stared, but really I was lucky and didn't experience trauma in that sense. Recently my 3 year old niece noticed the dark blue dots and the redness along my forehead and asked what it was. It hit me that I don't want her to EVER feel like she has to hide behind a mask and that she was created beautifully. Her appearance does not define who she is. My biggest critic throughout my life about the way I looked has always been MYSELF. Since 7th Grade I have worn a full face of makeup. I used to HATE makeup. It was my coping mechanism, my security blanket and a way to keep a guard up around myself. I used to think no guy would ever fall for someone with a face like mine. I gave too much value to what I felt like other people thought of me and the way I looked. I didn't feel like I could ever truly show myself in front of new people. I've come to learn this is all obviously not true. Part of the process that has made me come to this realization was when I discovered makeup a few years ago not as something to fix my "flaws", but as something I could use a creative outlet. I understand that some people are not comfortable with showing the world their physical flaws. I want to help people be more confident with themselves whether that be through use of makeup or not. The use of makeup does NOT mean you are trying to "lie" to people or that you're two-faced. However, I also want people to know there are no mistakes. I'm so excited to be going into an industry that can also make positive impact on one's confidence. I'm still learning to be comfortable in my own skin. But, I think it's such an important thing with today's media and social networking to be able to see that there's no such thing as perfect.